Excuse the unplanned silence. In what has undoubtedly been the most heartbreaking experience of my 24 years, I'm currently in Blenheim, New Zealand, farewelling my beautiful grandmother, Shelagh.
And as I sit here, holding her hand, stroking her head and attempting to recount happier times (''do you remember that afternoon where you said you were taking the dog for a walk, and I decided that it was the PERFECT opportunity for me to raid all of the cupboards for your delicious baked goods, only for you to catch me? YES!'' Oh, little Corrine. Once a piglet, always a piglet), I can't help but think ''how? Why? What happens to a person? Where does their laughter go? Where does their smile disappear to?''
My precious grandmother, Shelagh.
But it was while discussing the subject of death that my Uncle nodded gingerly and offered the most irresistible pearl of wisdom:
''You know, I've been to a number of funerals this year... and I've also attended a heap of weddings. Of course, you'll learn a few things at BOTH types of events, but you'll usually take away more lessons from a funeral. A realisation that I've come to appreciate is that you'll never, ever regret giving someone your love. It's when you don't give them that time and care that you start to think ''I wish I'd done this'' or ''WHY didn't I say that?''. But loving someone with all your heart? You'll never, ever regret that.''
Heartbreaking Corinne. "Once a piglet, always a piglet" - I love that. Thinking of you at this time.
Sweetheart. I am so sorry that this is happening to you. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Sorry to hear about this. I must be heart breaking. Lots of love to you and your family.
Oh, Corrine I am so sorry that you are losing your beautiful grandmother.
Your uncle sounds very wise to me.
Thinking of you, my darling x
Oh, darling, I am so, so sorry. I was 24 when I lost my grandmother, too. *HUGS* Your uncle is so very, very correct; never regret loving someone with all of your heart. <3
My heart is breaking for you, honey - I lost my grandma a couple of years ago, without a chance to say farewell. But what a beautiful and graceful thought to take from this. Wishing you all my love through this time xx